When son got alcohol poisoning and almost died, they deemed it a suicide attempt. He said in beginning it wasn't. But they felt that while it was not an active suicide event, subconsciously, he did want to die. He did confirm that later.

So, I don't know Petunia. Son says this, while he is not actively suicidal at this time, he is not trying to not die. It sure didn't matter if it was an active attempt or a reckless desire when he was lying on the gurney with a tube sticking out of his throat while they breathed for him.

I am so sorry for your loss Petunia. I wish you much peace.