Hi DJ, thanks for your thoughts. I think my isolation has intensified my insecurities in some ways...I have a lot more time to ruminate about my flaws.

Going out with friends is hard for me too, especially going into bar settings, I'm always disappointed when guys don't hit on me or they just ignore me all together. You are 100% right, the only way to get over my insecurities is to go out with people and try to preoccupy myself, leaving less time to beat up on myself.