i have a phobia of getting close to people or working with people much. it keeps me from a lot but i am working on this and trying to make it go away. I can get out of the house but i have a fear of dealing with people and being in toxic work environments

anyway

i have not had a real job since i was 21 and i am so worried of this fact but i dont know how to get on wtih it. i am 26 now. i have a feeling of impending doom a lot but i also know if i at least work on unpaid collaboratives and developing my material and learning i will maybe be okay so i focus on teaching myself. Basically i spend a lot of time trying to develop skills and learn. Still the fact that i have no job history worries the hell out of me?

I know I'm getting very bad start not socializing enough -- i do sometimes but i dont keep connections. I do collaborating online, and offer a service. im not good at keeping in touch. but i really try to get therapy for it and work out my fears. I have a lot of irrational phobias to do with people

i just want to get through this year. i want to try and socialize more but i also see my time window for socializing fading. If anyone could give me advice i'd appreciate it.