Thanks Evangelista , Debbie and Bipolar_Bear, I am trying hard to just hang on and not take more meds for sleep. I may have to cave. I think if the bad thoughts and dreams would stop at bed I would be OK with sleep. I was until recently. I mentioned some of that in abuse. I didn't want to post what because all my threads will have triggers and nobody will read them. I am BEAT. I am grateful for the help and keep the ideas, support and tips up because till I can crawl over this issue I do not see a much sleep ahead