sweetheart, i'm on my way with sour cream cookie dough and we're going to rub it on all the places that hurt.

the intensity of your pain sounds like my breast pain. and you do have to have a "special" doctor to work with you. i finally found a physician's assistant, female, who believes everything i tell her and she consults with the office doctors anytime she feels she needs more input. but it took 30 years to find her.

my pain completely overrules anything else in my life when it is that bad. i even vomit because it hurts so bad. i know you aren't trying to get high. but i will tell you this, brownies with marijuana that has been clarified in the butter sure have helped me on more than one ocassion. and i didn't get high. i just got pain relief. i've known many cancer patients, near the end, who have used it and were able to have relief until the end.

i'd give anything if i could go to the doctors with you. my knowledge of the meds is good enough that i would understand what they're giving you and why.....and i would question them thoroughly about everything they were doing. everyone needs a patient advocate and i would love to be yours.

love you, pat