this started out as a journal entry peom and ended with a paragraph not a poem. oh well.
lol


What do I get
from psych central the Doc wants to know.
Well the DID’s that I met
In this city and in a local support group some on the healing road they don’t want to go.

They would rather have some one
who will take care and fix them with out
their self doing what needs to be done
and learning ways to force therapists to hospitalize some were all about.

I also encountered a few that DID they wanted to be
Because in a local support group I and a couple others disclosed what I had
Calling to join The group I began and befriending me
Until they found out the group was not about DID and that made them mad.

Basically there is no one around here anywhere close to
my therapy level for I didn’t have the luxury of doing therapy for DID
Over the standard course of decade years that others do.
I had a child to get home you see.

A lawyer told SKR and I work on it
Quietly and get it done.
Whereas others have / had the luxury of working a little bit
At a time, I had to do it in years of just one

To get things in control to the point where
My child could come back home to me
For SKR and I the words “not possible” was not there.
We went full steam ahead and my boy came home see.

But he was now violent and suicidal back in foster care he had to go
to go through residential treatment program, which is where he is now.
The lawyer told SKR and I he would come home after treatment so
We were told to continue working so we did and wow.

Was I surprised when I received LL as a therapist and she
Was amazed at all the work SKR and I had done.
I was told SKR and I had done at least 10 years of therapy work in three.
So now others at my level of healing around here – not a one.

The local support group is more for beginners, and for me
I’m well past the denial of the abuse so I
went looking for on line support groups for DID.
Private survivor run sites I did try

Everything went fine as long as I pretended to
Be still stuck in denial and not know anything about my DID and how
To take care of it. Many times I was told to stay away from those that do
Integration and were bold enough to be getting better now.

Some even told me to post as an alter even if I had to
Pretend because that site had message boards for specific aged alters. I said no.
I should not have to pretend and perpetrate misconceptions of a disorder. That I wouldn’t do.
The end result – I was banned and told to go.

So this time I decided to look only on professionally run sites that way
I would not have to pretend and perpetrate misconceptions of DID.
because of previous experiences on line I decided to barrel right in the first day.
That way people know right from the get go that I was just going to be me.

Because of all the work SKR and I did together I know
I have a lot to offer those that are ready to look beyond just barely surviving to
Finding out what DID is in the professional sense not the misconceptions and so
On and actually doing something to help their self. I wanted to find people who

Felt they are worth the time and energy it takes to live in the here and now I
also knew there had to be others that were doing therapy work for DID
so maybe I could find some new ideas to try
Well I found what I was looking for here at psych central for you see –


Even though there are people here that don’t want me to write
what I know about DID and my experiences and would rather have people perpetrating the misconceptions of DID There are as MANY if not more people here that continuously ask for and are making better lives for their self with the information that I have to offer and I have been accepted as a person who does not have to pretend to be nieve, so on. Here at Psych Central I have found a place that not only helps in the rough times but also welcomes, acknowledges and celebrates both healing and accomplishments.

So what did I learn by coming here –

1. Just because I had some bad experiences with privately run support groups that does not mean they all are like that.
2. Be myself. There really are on line support groups that welcome people who are choosing to heal instead of staying stuck in the problems and so on. And we are on one right this moment.
3. I am not alone. There really are people out there like me.
4. How to use the IGNORE icon to ensure I have a good – great on line experience that is 95% trigger free.
5. how to use a blog.