Well the thing is depression and anxiety can cause a complete lack of motivation.

Weren't you writing something at some point? You had to have the goal to start writing it.....also you see a pdoc and are on here posting about it, obviosuly you have a goal to have goals which is a goal in itself to better yourself, to be more comfortable, etc.....

You may feel completely different from everyone else because your social phobia hinders you from getting into the deeper aspects of social friendships and the like. How can you possibly relate to anyone on that deeper level if you dont give it a real chance? Here is the other thing, you WENT on a date with someone! Regardless of the fact that you left early, you WENT! You won't catch me on a date!

Another note: you may not be meeting others with such severe social phobia because thier phobia is so severe that they are afraid to talk to you but you dont know that because they have a social phobia .

You my dear friend make an effort and take strides wether or not you want to believe it. The fact that you WENT on a date, proves that.

I think your head gets in the way.....do you think you struggle with novels because you have so much on your mind?

I'm actually starting to think that thinking is a hobby for me because I do A LOT of it.

look at it this way:

I'm so jacked up right now that I cant even go OUT to fill out job applications because I am that self consious, I rush into a store and out of a store and wonder the WHOLE time I am in the store what people are thinking. I hesitate in every conversation. I dont just 2nd guess myself I will do it 20 times....if someone I dont know starts talking to me I immediatly go into oh **** mode.....etc etc etc....

give yourself more credit IT!