We'll it sounds like your pdoc is not cool at all. If you didn't like te side effects then he/she should try something different. I feel for ya I have had mostly long lasting depression with few hypomanic times. So unfortunatly that is what you look for but like some people have already mentioned it does get better I have found therapy to be the best thing that has helped me meds do a little but therapy does most. Good luk hope you get feeling better.