Hello rothfan6,
You have difficulty to deal with your emotions? Which are most difficult for you to deal with?
It is true that sometimes, it is difficult to understand all our emotions. Try to find what makes you feel that way. Maybe it will help. You seem to be lost in your emotions, is it true?
Like Leed asked, do you have a therapist? It would help you a lot to find what makes you live some emotions.
Anyway, best of succes to you!