Needing some input about CT therapy..I have gone to different websites and read about this type of therapy(this is the modality my T uses) but I still don't have an understanding of it. With this type of therapy do you just forget about the past(for me an abusive childhood)and deal with only the present? I have dissociated just about my whole life, including an abusive 20 yr. marriage, and have tucked away mostly everything. Does a person discuss their past in CT therapy, or do you just discuss the issues you are facing today. I am finding it all quite confusing.

My last therapist told me that I needed to move on from my past, and change my behavior and thought processes in the present, which I tried really hard to do. Went to classes, got training, got a great job, continued with support groups and AA meetings, but still felt so crappy and hurting inside. There would be times that I would want to talk about something I remembered from my childhood, but those things weren't discussed in session..So I kept quiet. And now I am scared that doing this type of therapy may be the same thing. At least what I have read makes me think this.

I am so afraid of making a mistake again. I don't think that I could take it. Is it weird that I want someone to hear me? to really listen to me? To my friends and family I look so ok, so together on the outside, I've learned to do that well. But inside I am such a mess..Guess I yearn to share that mess with someone I can trust..

Any input would really help..tomorrow I have another session and am tempted to not go, it will be only my 2nd one with him..thank you so very much for your support..