I haven't cut my self in years. The cuts from the beginning are extremely hard to find. You have to know exactly where to look to know it's not a normal skin crease or something. The ones I did later on are still visable, but since my legs are so white to begin with most people don't see them on the rare occasion I wear shorts. There is a scar from 7 years ago that you can see no matter what. The scar that should have gotten stitches. But I kind of like it. It's a reminder why I had to quit and that no matter how small I started....It gets worse. I can handle bad, but I can't go through worse again. If I ever started up again with actual cutting I don't think I would ever be able to quit.
Whenwillitend is right. Quit, now, while you still can.