I thought about the jet several times today. Very helpful, it was a better day overall. No tears so far.

I talked with my pdoc. I'm supposed to check in with her every couple of weeks. I had to admit to her that I have been overdoing it on the klonopin, since I am just about out. Her main concern, of course, is my alcohol use with the klonopin. She also wants me to see my therapist weekly, not possible since I can't take off from work. I think I am ready to try more of this on my own. I get tired of both the pdoc and the t constantly checking for sui. behaviors and addiction problems. I'm a bit off, but I don't think I am as bad as they do.