Thank you all for the kind replies. Today was a much better day. I've been looking into the daycare idea. I'm considering getting a job at a daycare so my kids would have some playmates and I would have some variance as well. All of the difficulties with the kids are just a bit amplified right now because we just moved and are kind of starting all over with making friends. Their grandparents and other relatives live in another state so we don't see them much. Things could always be worse