I'm going to leave my husband. It's time for me to go. I'm unhappy and have been for years. I'm tired of his control, games, abuse, and selfishness. His abuse is not only towards me now, he's starting to be cruel to my babies as well. Yesterday he did nothing but yell and cuss at them, for crying.

It's the last straw, I'm now willing to leave and sacrifice some things. I want to take my babies, get a job, continue going to school, get some public assistance, and be on my own in my own place. That's what I want, and I'm ready. Of course I'm terrified to be alone, I'm also afraid that he will ditch the kids, but I have to leave or I will die unhappy. Life is to short for me to waste away in this condition. I want better for my babies too.

Please help me, tell me where I should begin, what I should do. I'm really going to do it. I'm expecting my student loan soon, and that's when I'm going to break for it.

I'm so scared, and hurt, but this change and chance is going to be the beginning of my new free life. I'll no longer feel scared to make him made, and I'll no longer feel for repercussions because I'm me, Desirae. I'm ready to grow up extra tall now, and be a successful, single mother. I need a friend.