http://www.lilaclane.com/relationships/emotional-abuse/
This is the link to the website I just visited that I checked out. According to this site, yes I'm abused emotionally and physically.

I'm not ready for this huge change, but who ever is?!? I have to leave this place, or I will die, seriously. It's either leave him, or die....because I can't live like this anymore.

My heart is broken, and he has no heart, I've looked deep and beyond depth for far to long, it's time for me to stop looking, and do something for myself. I want to live, I want to be happy, I want to be free, and I want to offer my children the best possible situation I can give them in this situation.