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Originally Posted by sadmum03
Hi.I've recently been diagnosed as Bipolar II, after years of being treated for depression. My doctor has put me on SeroquelXR 150mg daily. However I just feel sad ALL the time. My husband told me he'd rather me off the meds as he misses the real ME? He says hed rather go through the "crazy,angry" stuff if it meant that i was myself again.
I'm so scared that I'll never enjoy life the way I used to. I dont want to simply exist. I want to have fun and feel happy again. I have 3 beautiful kids that I want to be happy and i hate that they are seeing me like this....
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Much of my story is similar. I was diagnosed with Depression in my teens and treated as. In my mid-20s diagnosed Bipolar II, which certainly is more accurate. I struggle with the med/feeling better as well. My bf has a lot of depression issues, but refuses meds because, "
I won't be the one who's making me feel better, it would be pills." Etc. etc. I have spent the past three years trying to make peace with the fact as of now, I have to be on medications, period. And they have made a difference in my life. I have been on countless that didn't, or made things worse. It's a very tricky balance. Do you attend therapy? Maybe your husband would be willing to go with you and try to understand, with a professional, your side of it? I've had many naysayers in my world, and I have to keep reminding myself they are not the professionals---while they love me and mean well, they do not have thorough medical knowledge, etc. or therapeutic knowledge. I hope your husband comes around, that must be such an added burden for you.
Currently I am not happy myself; I've had a lot of ups and downs recently and they're just harder when you're Bipolar, period.
If you ever want to talk, feel free to send me a Private Message.
