You could be afraid of being to close to your T and have that not last. You could be afraid of the intensity of the T-relationship. You could be afraid of issues you're gettting to. You could be afraid of a lot of things. Do you have ANY idea what makes you so afraid right now?

I get nervous with my T all of the time until we get "into" the session. There are a lot of reasons why. I'm afraid of her "seeing me" sometimes. Therapy is so intense. It's hard and complicated.