desirae.... you seem like a very level headed woman.... you love your babies.... sometimes as moms or parents for that matter we have to put aside what we want in life to give the best we can for our kids.... i know leaving him will be hard. it will be sad.. but if he is abusive you cant risk him hurting those two babies.. i am not trying to say that he will but there is always that possibility..... it is understandable that you love him. it is understandable that you want to go but you want to stay.. but you have to think about those little munchkins.... the strength will come... and when you think that you cant go on, you will be able to go further than you thought....
You can do it! i have faith in you!! (((((((((hugs)))))))))))