(((Iamnutty)))

Have you gone into therapy and/or support groups, in order to work through these emotions and gain support from other people (who've been in similar situations)? If not, I'd highly recommend that you start there.

You have experienced horrible things, with a man that was supposed to love you & honor you. Most men are not like your ex-hub. But, you still need to work through these things. The memories, the emotional feelings, repercussions on your life. All have had a dramatic impact on your life ~ very gentle hugs to you!