((((((((((((Kimmy))))))))

I have two situations that brought realizing not everyone dissociates and that I do.

The first one was one day my sister was watching the bunch of us younger siblings and I had refused to eat my lunch. She had been told by my parents to make sure she fed us lunch and lunch was soup. I was plain tired of eating soup. and for some odd reason I still don't know why, the kind she had chosen looked like vomit to me and I just could not eat it. The end result was sister and I got into a verbal fighr and I went running to our shared bedroom. Not too long before this our parents put a sliding bolt on the door to only be used when changing clothes. I broke that rule that day by locking my sister out of the room.

I laid down on my bed and watched out the windows at the clouds. The next thing I know Im sitting at the window and I look back and see my body on the bed (real or imagined I have no idea). then I hear my sister pounding on the door. then Im back on the bed and I got up and unlocked the door and tried to tell my sister I either floated out of my body or I fell asleep and dreamed it but I was floating.

She picked up a lamp and told me if I didn't quit lying to her she was going to kill me. People don't float out of their bodys and I hadn't been in the bedroom long enough to fall asleep. and that if I told anyone else about this lie of mine they would lock me up in a nut ward forever so I best just shut up about it.

I never again mentioned to anyone that I floated on musical clouds until I told SKR 5 and a half years ago.

The second situation happened at school. We had this one teacher who if you were not fully inside the classroom when the bell rang you were considered late for class.

this one day I happened to be the one with one foot in the classroom and the other outside the classroom and was told to go to the office and get a pass for being late.

When I got to the office instead of the normal female secretary the first person I saw was the guidance counselor. He gave me a 5-10 minute lecture and a pass. While he was yelling I started feeling that floaty feeling. I remember starting up the stairs to go to class and the next thing I know I have locked myself in one of the bathroom stalls and the school nurse was looking over the top asking if I had started my period and if so I was going to be ok. I told her no and I didn't know what was going on. She told me to stop lieing. if I didn't want to tell her why I had locked myself in the bathroom that was ok but she knows my parents didn't raise me to lie to her. People don't lock themself in a bathroom stall without knowing what was going on. When I didn't say anything else She let me spend the day in her office laying down.

After that I made sure that I kept quiet and fake and bluff when I really didn't know what was going on. It helped that I have a hearing problem because if all else fails and I can't figure out on my own what the conversations and so on are I can say - what? and people belive I didn't hear them because of my hearing problem and they repeat them self adding more details that help me figure out what was going on at the moment that I "woke up".