What can I do? I have been diagnosed with depression and PTSD; but, for various reasons, I don't believe that this is an accurate diagnosis. The problem is, my therapist consistently treats me like a "cookie cutter" example of someone in a deep depression. Right now, I am in a very, very dark place and am.... well, just really messed up. The problem is that it's not just that I feel "depressed", "sad" or "hopeless"; While I do feel those things, there is this really confusing jumble in my head; my thoughts are so disorganized. I think about things, and can hear things, but I cannot comprehend things. But she still uses those idiotic expressions like "Feeling like you're in a deep, dark hole" and "having clouded judgement". But I know it's much more complicated than that; I just can't find a way to relay what's going on to her. And when she continues to use those common phrases and descriptions, it just really pisses me off to a point where I check out and stop communicating with her. I mean, I can't stand to listen to those stereotypical descriptions of hers! It drives me even further away from her, and makes me feel even more distressed. I feel like now, I am really truly alone here. I just don't like her right now
What can I do to fix this? How can I explain this to her without her telling me that it's "just depression"?