I don't really know Venus. Just trying to figure it out.

Feels like if I can't admit I am depressed, and I can't change it or make it better, I am just sitting in this weird limbo place. I can't go back to meds, like I really can't do it. I can't ask for help, cause no one can really help.

I just don't feel like I have the energy to be depressed, or feel it. I don't really have words to explain it... Know I am really depressed, but refusing to feel it, and I don't know what I am feeling, just a jumbled up mess of mutilated feelings. Like if your feelings and emotions split, or fragmented on you feel the sharp tips of them all at once, but can't make sense of any of them.

Oh brother. .I need something to just shut my brain down for a while.