Been there. Done that. It's fear induced aggression. Strike first, before they have a chance to. Force the termination on them before they have a chance to force it on you.

It's just the fear that happens after a vulnerable moment. Your therapist will understand that desire to run, to hit, to lash out. They will get it.

To this end, let's look at the facts here, your therapist did not abandon you after your original email. No - in fact, she wanted you to come in and have a session with her. Then, she messaged you to take care of yourself, so she's thinking about you and wanting you to be safe. I see no threat of abandonment there. I see no evidence of her lashing out or trying to hurt you when you are vulnerable.

Oh man, do I understand where you are coming from - and your therapist will too.

Try to look past the anger and look at your fear. Talk to your therapist about it.

This will be okay. It's just fear. You can feel it and carry on anyway.

This will be okay.