This is mainly me thinking out loud, but feel free to comment and provide insights.

T often says that therapy is a place for me to practice relationships. One of the things we work on is being more open and trusting of others.

So this morning I realized I want to go to my next session. Right now I am not afraid or anxious about going. I really want to go and share with t what happened the last week and a half. I want to talk to t because I know I can trust her and that she cares for me and has my best interest at heart. I even want to share the difficult stuff.

These feelings are new to me. I'd always had it lurking in the back of my mind that full attachment to t wasn't worth it. This was just a temporary "fake" relationship. I felt there was no point in becoming really attached to t because eventually my sessions would end. But this morning I realized this is what I am supposed to be learning - how to be attached without being needy. I am supposed to learn healthy attachment in adult relationships. And the best way to do that is to practice with t. It is okay if the relationship isn't forever. This is what I am meant to learn right now.