***TRIGGER***

I live in Colorado, and I'm feeling really triggered by the little girl, Jessica, who went missing almost a week ago on her way to school. Ever since it happened, it has been on my mind. I've been hoping so badly that they would find her unharmed. A day or so after she disappeared, they found her backpack and water bottle about 6 miles from where she disappeared. Then late Wednesday, they found a body in an open space. They are trying to identify it now to see if it is her.

It always triggers me so much when a child is abducted and then found murdered. Most often, SA is involved. As a child, I was SA by a neighbor. Although my abuser wasn't violent (he posed more as a father figure), any kind of childhood SA that is in the news triggers me. It reminds me of how perpetrators deceive little kids and play on their emotions to get them under their control, and then abuse and hurt them. When I hear about abductions of children who are SA and then murdered, it also gives me chills, because I had that same trusting nature as a kid that led to my abuse. I could have easily ended up as a statistic myself.

Anyway, it's just making me sick hearing about this. I'm pretty sure the body they found is going to be her, and i am hoping so badly it isn't.