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Originally Posted by My kids are cool
I should probably start my own thread and not keep whining on here, huh? Isn't it weird that some people start lots of threads and seem to really like it and some of us just hang out here. I feel like I want to curl into a ball and just rock myself like I used to when I was little. Hide somewhere.
I talked to T yesterday afternoon and he said he was going to read the list at 8. He also said earlier he would call me after he read it and reassure me that his feelings for me had not changed. He has not called yet. When we talked yesterday, we didn't discuss him calling, but in session he said he would. So logically, I know that he is a GUY and guys forget this stuff, and since we talked yesterday and he said nothing would change, he may not realize that I still expected a call. That is all logical, right? But there is an eight year old in my head SCREAMING at me and wailing that he doesn't love us anymore and she told me so and it's all my fault because him not calling means he thinks we're gross.
[i ****ing hate that kid.]
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you know i hate saying this because i would be the last person doing this but can you call leave a message saying you are worried things have changed.
i know how you are feeling and it is a horrible place to be .that feeling yucky, small and unloved, scared,humiliated,and the list goes on. i know for me i alway try to sit with those feelings and it makes me so miserable because for sure the T has better things to do.
but i am learning that my T can help make those feelings less strong with even one sentance. maybe if you call that can happen for you.sorry if i am rambling and just dont get it.