My problems are nothing compared to a lot of people on this website, but what I am feeling right now is intolerable. I want to rip my skin, collapse on the floor, and scream at the top of my lungs and cry and cry and cry. But my mother is staying with me at the moment. I don't let her see me cry. I have to be strong in front of my mother. I take care of her. I know I'm pmsing so I'm sure that's partially why I feel so intensely screwed up. But my heart is pounding. It wont stop. It just rapidly beats in my chest and I can feel it in my ears and it wont stop. I can hardly breathe. I need to scream... but I can't, so instead I'm writing this post. I hope at least expressing these feelings will help me somehow. I don't know how else to cope.