Sundance, I appreciate your concern and I know the possibilty of it being somthing else. I grew up with a bipolar mom, and my brother died a year ago, from suicide. My brother and I were similar in the ways that we acted with mood swings. He was cycling very fast before he past away. He was a social worker himself and refused to recieve help. I know it is up to me to change the course and to get help, I don't want my children to grow up the same way I did. So even though I have heard not to search out what it can be, doesn't change the fact of how I feel. All I know is I need someone that can relate right now the depression is just to much for me. I have been to the doctor, he told me it sounds like bipolar, but I want a therapist to make that diagnosis. When I was little I remeber wishing that one day I would find happiness, and I'm going to. I appreciate everyones support !

My beginning will not dictate my end
Jean