(((Simon))))
Don't feel bad about having to come back - I took a "break" myself that didn't last that long at all.
I know its hard living in anything at all like that kind of environment - I really do feel for you.
It may not be the most useful for you - but have you thought about writing down everything your feeling (journalling) or maybe writing some poetry or doing something musical? You have the artistic talent going for you - so its worth a try. It can help to ventilate how you feel - and I've found it can also bring you over the edge enough to cry so it releases the pressure and tension.
Take care of yourself okay? Can you go for a walk, spend some time outdoors, do something you enjoy or go to visit someone who might be able to cheer you up or that you can at least have some fun with?
**hugs** PM me anytime, okay?
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