((KD))

I was 9 yrs old, woke up on a cliff over looking our small town, people were screaming at me not to jump, and the police car was speeding across the dirt road near where I was standing, I don’t know how I go up there or what I was doing, or how long I had been there, I was a few inches from the edge, but I was seeing the Picture from the Church book of Jesus with all the children around him and he was reaching for me…
other times got blamed alot for things dont remember doing..destroying things..waking up in strange places outside of town..looking for my dad..just wandered off allot I guess..used to wake up in the house hallway holding my younger sister's bedroom door shut so they couldnt come out, thought something really bad and evil was going to get them if they came out of their room even when my stepfather and mom wasnt home..

teen years were worse..once woke up with police in front yard and phone in my hand.standing staring out the big bay window in the front room staring out into the yard..just standing there with policemen squatting near the wall waving there hand at me trying to get me to open the front door..bunch of squad car had there guns out..lights flashing....police said someone called said someone was being k*ll*d..said they heard screaming in the back ground..just yuck stuff..sorry..

put a trigger icon just in case...thank you for letting me talk about it a little..feels strange but okay here among friends..