Hi Everyone, I'm in need of some help, again.

A year ago my girlfriend was invited for 'coffee' with her work friend. As she didn't know what 'coffee' was intended, she willingly said she would. I found out and we argued and fought, and she still said she would. I was admitted into ICU for Attempted Suicide. I just couldn't be bothered and I decided if this was going to happen, then I was going to leave. Anyway, she realized about half a year after it meant that. So we were okay, until I came to a coffee shop. I actually refused to go in, I hate coffee now and thinking about it kills me..

And then there was a holiday. I stick to my promises more than anything, they're what I live by, my girlfriend know's it too. She was then invited on going on holiday with her college friends as they were leaving College to go to Uni. I said I didn't want her going as I knew she'd disappoint me, but fine, she went. And sure enough she got drunk on her second day, and she told me many hurtful things. Now I cannot bare thinking about holidays, or even thinking about Alcohol, I hate her going out now, and even worse hate her going out with her friends. But I just still try and let her get on with it.

What do I do?