a concrete example:P
well, there was this time at school where i was super happy and hyper, but everyone around me was just bored and very...indifferent, i recall them saying some not so nice things:P
..and then the feeling of alienation comes up, and thats how i end up feeling. then i get in a pretty pissy mood from that point on. i don't snap at people, but i end up sitting by myself.
then again..even if someone offers to sit with me, i can't really let them. cause i get freaked out! freaked out that im gonna mess up AGAIN!!! and then, whoop, thats one more person who dislikes me:/
i can't have that happen to me anymore..