I understand completely. You aren't hated, though. Hate is a very strong word. I don't think most of us normal folks are capable of hating. It is a nasty thing. I dislike the way people are sometimes, I might even hate the way they act on occasion like a current co-worker, but I never hate the person. I think most of us are like that.

Your Dad had no reason to act like that, but it doesn't mean he hates you. I am sure he loves you, he may just have a hard time showing it. That is another problem in this world, people are afraid for whatever reason to show their love or true feelings. I know that is hard to accept in our dark times of needs, but it is a fact of life.

You seem like a great person, going through rough timee. As you can see, everyone here loves you and I know people in real life do as well .