As a small child when I guess I was old enough to think about things,I knew I was "different"to the other kids,couldn't understand why everyone else didn't get so super excited about things,would be the main thing as a kid I noticed and I've always been fairly loud and full on.I suspected I had Bi-polar for about 2 years and recently diagnosed as type 2,I am also 99% sure I'm ADHD as well,maybe the BP has come out as the hyperactive part,I've done tests,read books,talked to people with adhd and have no doubt,one day will get some $ and find out for sure.In my teens and early 20's I attempted suicide 4 times over about 7 yrs,and never want to go back to those days of depression,You put on a happy face,most ppl don't get it,and crap to those who think for attention,no I wanted out.I am now 2& 1/2 yrs off the gambling,(pokies) I had a 20 yr chronic habit,and what made it worse was I think not ever wanting to go back to the depressed days,so I became a rock,and blocked all the down stuff I should have felt,not to say it wasn't a %#@&#! of a life,but I was living on adrenaline and god knows what else bouncing around my head in the chemical dept.I have a beautiful sweet boyfriend of 19yrs,defacto,and now the poor thing has to try ride with me on the continuing highs and lows.That's about it for now,I love the ups and hate the downs,but need the manic to achieve in a business,I believe I can make big bucks out of.I realised in the last couple of years I'm an artist.I choose not to take medication,except sleepers that I badly need at times,but no motivation whatsoever unless I have the ups,and what a buzz,it's no wonder the brain wants more and more.thanks for listening