Do you ever find you lie ... maybe white ones ... but still lies ...

to get out of things you don't feel able to do?

I just did a bad thing i told my friend I couldn't catch a movie with him tonight because I was throwing up.

I'm not well i did after lunch (seem to have a hanging around tummy bug) but rest of the day I have been mostly ok.

i just didn't feel like i could deal with going out and being social.

this is a close friend although as is my rule (bar one person) i don't tell anyone about any 'crap stuff' IRL.

so i feel like a %#@&#! person who can't handle anything and making up excuses ... is so NOT my style ...

does anyone else do this?

should this post be here ... maybe not ...

but i didn't know where else to put it.

*sigh*

to be back to normal would be so freakn great.

again i whine ... soz.