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Can you benefit from Cognative therapy - let me ask you this -
when you are with your therapist do you talk about your problems (any problem past or present) that you have encountered between your last appointment and your present one?
if so do you talk about how you solved that problem or your therapist and you talk about ways to solve that problem after you told her what happened?
If so you are already doing cognative therapy.
now think about if your talking about the problem. Did it help you to talk to your therapist about it?
If you solved the problem before going to the therapy session did telling your therapist about it and te solution you came up with help you to know you did the right thing for you?
If you didn't solve the problem before going to therapy when you and your therapiast were discussing the problem and the possible soltions did it help you?
Your answers will tell you if you are benefitting from doing cognative therapy even though you have no memories about your abuse.
Psychodynamics is basically re experiencing your memories so that you can know what you were feeling at the time the situation happened and then taking care of it.
an example of this is what I do focusing on a specific trigger or memory and letting myself experience both being in the here and now and also experience whatever memory is replaying in my head as a flashback or as I am acting the memory content out as "Mary" "katherine" and so on.
being co conscious while the memories are replaying as flashbacks and memory pieces (alters) and focusing on that memory and the matching triggers is hard. Its worth it but its hard because I feel the feelings just like they are happening for the first time because memories are stored that way.
Think of it this way psychodynamics is for example if you were raped letting yourself re experience (feel) the emotions, smells, tasates, sounds, touches, sights and pain of that rape.
Another example of psychdynamics is in my blog - LL and I using the sand tray. I relaxed myself into my tunnel area to the point where I was able to see LL but also experience the memories (flashbacks) that running my hand through the sand triggered and LL kept me focused on telling her about the memory that was replaying by asking me questions about the situation that I was telling her about. I cound feel the texture and coolness of both the present sand in the sand tray and the sand that was the memory of my playing in sand as a child. I could smell both the prese4nt sand tray and the smells that I did as a child playing in the sand. I felt the same emotions that were a part of that playing in the sand memory that was replaying as a flashback and memory piece.
I cant tell you if you should change from what you are doing now to psychdynamics but I can tell you that if you are ready to know what your forgotten memories are and can handle re experiencing the emotions and sense memories contained in those foprgotten memories then yes you can benefit from doing so.
If you decide to go for it spend a few sessions with your therapist talking about doing it and so on so that you can plan when and how to do it that will be the most safe for you. for example Doing it the week your therapist goes on vacation is not the right time to do it because you weill be flooded with the feelings and so on contained with in that memory.