Thanks confused and livethroughthis,

Yup definatly could be seasonal, I have no reason to be depressed. I made a list tonight of things I have to be greatful for, and it's a lot. Sometimes I feel selfish for being depressed, and I know that is silly in itself, but I am blessed, andnit could be so much worse and has been. Maybe that is one thing, I used to have plenty of reason to be depressed, but my life now is pretty good, it's not perfect, not easy by any strech, but good. Peaceful.

I have had really good experiences with therapy, I just feel there comes a time when I have to stand on my own, it's definately not a case of thinking there is nothing left to learn. And in canada that type of therapy is not covered, unless you do out patient. My t that I have was supposed to be short term, and that was covered. I have known her for 7 years I think, she is a really good person, she helped me alot with ocd behaviours too.

I thought some more about this and I am not doing everthing I could. So I can be more mindful, remind myself that this will indeed pass, that I have much to be greatful for, and when this flu passes I can up the exersice. Oh and get taking my vitiman D, thanks for pointing that out.

I haven't painted in a while, painting makes me depressed certainly, but I could knit, and work on other stuff that doesn't draw on my emotions as much. I have no idea why painting does that.

Thanks so much for the talk and support. I really needed that. You guys are always so awesome, can't thank you enough!!!! My bf could never sit through this conversation, without going bonkers. it means a lot to me. I know I can be very wordy, and you guys are so patient.