((((Yoda))))
I am sorry to hear about all of these troubles plaguing you and your loved ones. Losing your cat and it's kittens is heartbreaking in itself! I am completely serious ~ I can't imagine going up against all of these stressors. Especially in such a short period of time!
Regarding your cousin's suicide, following her father's death (and her traumatic brain injury), I have lots of emotions tied to that subject as well.
I hope that you feel a little better, now that you've gotten these feelings off your chest. I usually feel a little better when I share issues that are tormenting me. Especially when I receive supportive and understanding posts in response! My thoughts are with you. Gentle hugs sent your way.