I also read that stopping meds that are working, then having a manic or depressive episode & wanting to go back on them doesn't mean the same meds will work for you again. This fear keeps me on my meds. I went through so much hell to get the right combo that I dare not go off them for fear that they might not work again for me.

I had an "episode"--first for me in a few yrs. & ended up in the ER Sat. night due to mixing too many Xanax with alcohol--not a suicide attempt--but I was trying to stop the emotional pain from a hurtful comment my husband made. I'm very dependant on his opinion of me to boost my self -esteem. I don't feel good about myself unless he is giving me positive vibes. Anyway, I told my story in another thread (I think that's what they are called--new to this online support stuff) so I won't go into the details here.