Hey all, just getting really down and depressed first thing in the morning, I posted about lack of motivation in the mornings but It's more than that, It's the cold weather that's making it even harder, i know It's perfectly normal to not wanna get up at 6:15am but It's gonna make me late for work soon, im snoozing for 20 mins at a time. I've recently gone back on my meds which take 3 weeks to kick in i believe.

Here is one part im really struggling to understand when im at work and joking with the staff and residents im alright you would never guess in a million years im suffering like this. However, when im on my own different story altogether! Im anxious, guilty, depressed, not eating. Im sure it has something to do with been comfortable with myself and my emotions? And controlling them all. I used to be one of the lads go clubbing what happens on tour stays on tour. Now im an emotional wreck!

Just got a new contract at work more hours and a promotion so to speak, i drive a nice car, have a loving family, im 24 just turned i should be out partying having fun.

Thanks Dan