Of course the right rational thing would be to discuss it with T (I've come to the conclusion myself, that when I ask that question, it is always something that I should discuss with T), but I also know how very hard it can be.

I know my T always reinforces to be interested in myself rather than getting caught up in the thoughts and feelings - so it you feel unable to share this with T at the moment, maybe just do a little internal enquiry of the thought and feelings associated with telling T rather than the purging itself.

My session is Tuesday too - so will think of you and send some best wishes over for you.

Soup