I have absolutely no idea where this post should go, so i will let the moderators decide...

I think my dad is going through a breakdown, in the last few weeks he's not been himself, hes been very quiet, snappy, vacant, and when you ask him questions he ignores you. its things like this that make me worry about him. ive tried talking to him, and all i get is a nasty response. how can i help him if he wont tell me whats wrong!?

He's drinking alot too, he was drinking before he went to work the other day, at 8:30am, and he drinks throughout the day. i took something out to the bin just a minute ago and found 4 big bottles of gin and brandy. there was a wine bottle there too, in amongst lager cans. all empty of course.

i have spoken about this issue on here before, and it looked to me as if he was getting better, but last night he was acting so strangely. he looked as if he'd been crying and he wouldnt answer me when i spoke to him.

he has a really random mood lately too, he will be in a really good mood one minute, then a few minutes later hes extremely grumpy and gets really nasty, and has an evil look in his eyes...the look he has when hes drunk!

i am sure he's began going through a breakdown of some sort, and im really worried about him. i will try and be there for him, even with a mountain of my own troubles.

im down and out myself, and to see my own father do what my mum did before she died hurts me alot. i worry that hes going to go too because of it!

my dad just came home from work, and i asked him what the matter was last night and he replied "oh i was having my monets!" in a viscous way, and i asked "what caused it, whats the matter?" to which he replied "oh i dont know!! you know what im like, its because of charlie" (my dog who died about 4 weeks ago). he has taken it so badly, i understand how upsetting it is to lose a pet, because charlie was my pet too, but its devastated my dad, is forcing him into alcoholism, hes not sleeping or eating or doing anyhitng but work anymore. he owns his own business and im worried this will affect his business too and if he looses that, he will have lost everything he has worked hard for for 15 years!

i dont know whether to keep my distance, or try and be there for him and to take the verbal abuse he sometimes gives. like i said, im going through it badly lately (due to other things, not the dog) and i cant have this around me right now. this runs in parralell with another post of mine in which i saay that i am being suffocated by negativity all around me!

i kind of wish i could be in someone elses shoes right now. walking there walk, and not mine, i just seem to be running a marathon thats never ending! im exhausted and i just want to walk away from it all. leave this place and just get far away. theres nothing keeping me here anymore. its ruins it seems!