I went to t today, feeling anxious. i actually stood outside her office thinking about running away and not going in. I had an awful night last night, my anxiety and OCD were out of control. I ended up going to t, but i feel like it was a wasted session. Because I couldnt' get across what I so badly wanted to say. Then as soon as I got out, I burst into tears.

I am so frustrated. I wish that t could see me when i am in need. I wish that she could understand how much I want her right now. I texted her and she isn't replying. I feel very alone. and so anxious. and so mixed up as to why I cant let her see how bad everything really is.

I guess this is just a vent. if anyone has any suggestions, that would be great.