I wonder if maybe I'm just over-exaggerating everything, and maybe it's not as bad as it seems, if that makes sense? I really don't want to make people think badly of me, I did look up some things the other day though after sitting on the bus because I thought something and thought it was bad so I told myself not to think it because I was scared that the girl next to me knew what I was thinking, and when I looked that up it all came back to the same thing too :S