hi, i was abused by both men and women and from what i've read and been told SA doesn't make you gay. i'm sorry you are having a hard time, but if you are attracted to women, maybe you just find them attractive? i'm very sorry you were abused. that is so scary to deal with. in my human sexuality class we learned that sexual orientation is on a spectrum and people can be anywhere between straight and gay. i'm mostly afraid of WOMEN because of my abuse so i have only been in heterosexual relationships, but i have been attracted to and even in love with a woman. hugs to you and may angels surround you.