Yeah maybe i just always was gay. Its so hard to untangle this thoughts and feelings. I would want a relationship with a woman more than a man, but im honestly not sure which im sexually attracted to. Whebevr i think about i always just think women because i trust them more, not necessarily that i want them. I know this is sometig i probably need to just work out for myself but i really do appreciate any input.
Im sorry for the abuse youve endured too.