Everyone can have their own beliefs about God. I believe in a God who does not punish. I also don't believe in an all powerful God who "makes" bad things happen to people. Bad things just happen, to nearly all people at some point in their lives. I think God loves us unconditionally exactly where we are. I also believe God wants us to move forward and through our struggles, whatever they may be.
I am sorry you have lost your faith, but the fact that you still wonder and question is a good sign to me.
In my opinion if you are still thinking and wondering then there is still hope there? I hope so.
Thanks for posting this, I hope to keep hearing from you on the forums!
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"Although the world is full of suffering, it is also full of the overcoming of it." - Helen Keller
Strange how people who suffer together have stronger connections than those who are most content. –Bob Dylan
“If you can't fly then run, if you can't run then walk, if you can't walk then crawl, but whatever you do you have to keep moving forward.” Dr. Martin Luther King Jr.