Hi
Is the only reason you dont want him to drive the truck is because your afraid of losing him? You mentioned something about him finding another. you also mentioned that you are afraid to be alone. I briefly read your post and I hope I understand it correctly. It must be scary to think he will go ahead with this job? I know I would be if I were in your shoes. But, if it's something he really wants to do, maybe you could let him try it for awhile. I know a guy who is a trucker and he takes his wife with him. They enjoy the country together. Is this something that might interest the both of you? Assuming you dont have young children. I know the feeling of not wanting your spouse to do something. But If he really wants to pursue this maybe it's worth a shot. Talk to someone. Maybe a friend or therapist. Let us know what happens. I'll think you .

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