PurpleDaisy,

Sometimes life throws us stuff, and it can look pretty bad. But a lot of the time something really good can come from it too. Usually the end of something is just the beginning of something else. Often the good things that have come into my life have come out of something that did not seem good at all. Good things a lot of the time need a catalyst to get to us, or us to them..

I hope you can find some more hope and faith in yourself. Because I don't see you as a failure at all, hope you can see it too.

I hear you on spending time with others when you feel like this. Yes you can sure feel alone even when surrounded by people. I am glad that your family member said that to you tho, I hope you will take them up on the offer and call when you are lonely.

Sometimes we just have to re-frame things in our mind, when the plan we had changes.And it can be hard to do sometimes, but I think you are a pretty bright lady for sure. I hope you can find a way to find a light in this situation.

You are not a failure! Life just does happen, it's all just a process and a practice. And it is not always in our hands.