I don't think I'll have any problem getting unemployment. I just tend to worry about stuff lately.

I shouldn't worry. What's that saying? "Worrying is like praying for something bad to happen"?

Before this round of depression hit, I was in a long spell of being positive and really feeling like my business ideas were going to take off, and the book I'm writing would do well. I was into positive affirmations and always played CDs that were either motivational or related to business. That helped keep me up and kept me thinking about the future.

But several weeks ago, something hit me. I've spent all these years saying "someday" my businesses will be successful, "someday" I'll finish a book and it will do well, someday, someday, someday. But why haven't I done it yet? And what if "someday" never happens?

What if THIS is really all there is to life? Work an 8-to-5 job for a little more than minimum wage, come home to an empty house, watch a little TV, go to bed, and do it all over again until you die?

Maybe it's part of the funk that I'm stuck in right now.

I don't think this Wellbutrin is working very well. And I hate to get it increased.

I'm scheduled to see my therapist and psychiatrist one more time before I get fired. Maybe I should see about another appointment or two with the therapist.